7-15-08
I know it's been a long time....I'm sorry if you've been concerned
being on the sorta drugs I'm on has affected my life in many ways
it makes it very difficult to function the way I used to
it takes everything in me to make it thru a normal day of work and parenthood
my dr. has told me that I am functioning at an amazingly high level
which doesn't mean squat to me, because I am not a fraction of the person I was before
my social life is close to non-existent (I just don't have anything left at the end of the day) I have a hard time paying bills (I double pay, forget to pay, never get around to paying, pay the wrong amount), cleaning the house (I have a hard time realizing the house needs to be cleaned, let alone cleaning it), grocery shopping....(I can't seem to follow a list, remember what I need or buy the right brand...yeah yeah yeah, I know....so do you, but I never did before)
I don't remember words for things...I'll call the television remote the "boxie thingie", or the dishwasher the "hot thing with slots", I get distracted easily and sometimes can't remember things 10 seconds after I was told them. I forget to do things like renew prescriptions or attend wedding showers after responding yes.
I'm fat. Huge. Gigantor. Bigger than I ever was or thought I would be. I can't seem to lose weight no matter how hard I try (and it takes a herculean effort on my end to do so day in and out) diets require advance preparation. (right, exactly what I need....more stuff to take care of) plus, research has shown that 2 of the drugs I'm on cause weight gain. Yippie ki oh!!
oh and I sweat....lord how I sweat.
I am the fat sweaty lady who lives down the street.
DH says saying stupid shit like...."they need to fix you"
well, duh dingo.
I try very very hard to stay positive
It's who I am....err, used to be
But it's so hard.
So frikkin' hard.
so.
in case you wondered, that's where I've been
blogging falls to the end of the things I have to think about list
I'll be here when I can be
being on the sorta drugs I'm on has affected my life in many ways
it makes it very difficult to function the way I used to
it takes everything in me to make it thru a normal day of work and parenthood
my dr. has told me that I am functioning at an amazingly high level
which doesn't mean squat to me, because I am not a fraction of the person I was before
my social life is close to non-existent (I just don't have anything left at the end of the day) I have a hard time paying bills (I double pay, forget to pay, never get around to paying, pay the wrong amount), cleaning the house (I have a hard time realizing the house needs to be cleaned, let alone cleaning it), grocery shopping....(I can't seem to follow a list, remember what I need or buy the right brand...yeah yeah yeah, I know....so do you, but I never did before)
I don't remember words for things...I'll call the television remote the "boxie thingie", or the dishwasher the "hot thing with slots", I get distracted easily and sometimes can't remember things 10 seconds after I was told them. I forget to do things like renew prescriptions or attend wedding showers after responding yes.
I'm fat. Huge. Gigantor. Bigger than I ever was or thought I would be. I can't seem to lose weight no matter how hard I try (and it takes a herculean effort on my end to do so day in and out) diets require advance preparation. (right, exactly what I need....more stuff to take care of) plus, research has shown that 2 of the drugs I'm on cause weight gain. Yippie ki oh!!
oh and I sweat....lord how I sweat.
I am the fat sweaty lady who lives down the street.
DH says saying stupid shit like...."they need to fix you"
well, duh dingo.
I try very very hard to stay positive
It's who I am....err, used to be
But it's so hard.
So frikkin' hard.
so.
in case you wondered, that's where I've been
blogging falls to the end of the things I have to think about list
I'll be here when I can be
posted by momo at Monday, July 14, 2008
5 Comments:
Oh girl. It sounds like you're having a real hard time. I'm glad you checked in and I'll be thinking about you.
xoxox
sounds like you need some eye candy :)
well glad to know you are still around. funny how the doctor says how well you are doing but you don't quite feel that way. get better and we'll see you when we see you. i need to put blogging on the back burner. i have a little bit, but i do think about it more often than not.
Hey Nameless - glad to hear you're still among the living and the mostly lucid. Sorry to hear you've been having such a rough time. Sure hope things improve for you.
thinking about you.
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