5-3-2010

the Indian woman drying her nails next to me, looked straight at me and said "you are an old soul, accepting of all things, judging few....not much new or out of the ordinary fazes you...your soul is truly beautiful"

huh?

color me fazed.

my manicurist said...."uh huh....see?....this is why I was late for your appt. "

I slowly unscrewed my diet coke cap and took a long swallow.
okay, why not? my manicurist and I had talked previously about trying to find a psychic, and here one found us .

so I nodded and said, "well, I guess that I do believe in psychic's, fairy tales and miracles"
she responded with "of course you do.....you've had a miracle occur in your life already"
(which I have! Boychild's birth!)

then I asked her about being a psychic and stuff, and she said she had always been as long as she could remember and as a very young child in India, her parents used to bring people to her and have her tell them stuff and sometimes she would say things like "I don't want to talk to them, they're gonna die" and they would scold her and tell her not to tell people about that and then make her take a shower after the ill-fated person left. when she came to this country, she kept her talents quiet, and now only uses them when she chooses, instead of as a money maker. most often, she uses them to help people who can't quite do it themselves, by praying. when I asked her who she prayd to, she said, the universe, because she refused to be limited to one specific power.
(so cool)

then she said that I am struggling with a decision that I have already made it in my head, but my heart is not quite reconciled with yet. she told me to do what I knew to be right. that it was okay. that my maternal ancesters would understand.
(whooooo baby)

another thing she said was..."when you were young and very ill, did you ask your parents what it was all about?"
( I almost died from the German Measles when I was very young and I do know I was talking nonsense from high fevers. Was that statement part of the nonsense? I'll never know now.....)

she also said that I have had major losses lately that I have not come to terms with yet. I smile and act okay on the outside but on the inside it's turmoil. and that I need to figure out a way to let the world know what I know. I have a lot to share with the world that only I can share and that this is the time for me to share it.
(jesus...my parents, and the book I want to write)

and then as she was leaving, she said....

it's all going to be all right....

and then she was gone
and
tears were streaming down my face